the weather

i wanted so badly for the weather to be warm and sunny and "perfect" on the day i graduate from college. you know, because i'm wearing a dress and photos outside and just because that's what you're supposed to want for special occasions like this. but it doesn't seem like that'll be the case for friday, and i've been spending a lot of time upset about it.

today though, it's 49 degrees and overcast and the clouds keep sharing the rain with us every once in a while. it's not sunny. it's not warm. it's not perfect. but it feels like october. it feels like fall. it is calm and void of humidity and smells like wet leaves. it calls for a big bowl of homemade potato soup and an oversized sweater and alexi murdoch's "through the dark." it reminds me of simple and sweet memories that i'd almost forgotten. it feels like coming home again. today, the weather eases my soul and makes me smile. today, i don't mind the dark and the chill and the drizzle.

if the weather on my commencement day feels like october and smells like wet leaves, i won't mind. i will be thankful for the support of my family and my education. thankful for everything i've experienced these strange four years. thankful that i am alive.

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