about 2013

2013 was the most erratic year I've ever lived. I mean, really. "I have no idea what's going on right now" was my official tagline.  I don't know how many times those particular words came flying out of my mouth in that particular order, but I'm pretty sure it was at least a once-a-day occurance.

2013 started out so happy and full of promise, until the joy came to a grinding halt and pain came out to play. It got a lot better when summer rolled around, and everything felt super adventurous and carefree. By the time the air turned crisp, though, 2013 had slowly settled into this unexplainable weirdness...a weirdness that, much to my dismay, lead to ALL THE AWKWARD.

Then it just got real weird again, and here we are.

All in all, it was 12 months of pure uncertainty. 12 months of trial and error.
I didn't quite figure out what exactly it is that I want, but I learned a lot about what I don't want
in life
in a job
in a friend
in a guy
which I think is just as important.

With all the figuring out and adjusting I still have to do in the coming months, I'm pretty sure 2014 will be just as inconsistent as 2013 was, but I think it'll be a better kind of inconsistency. I'm not really into the whole New Years resolutions thing...I just want more and less of certain things. More unexpected thrills, less pain. More passion, a teensy bit less weirdness. A lot more Adrien Brody, and much less awkward. Please, 2014. If there's any more awkward, I literally might die.

So anyway, that's my ode to you, 2013. Thanks for the lessons. I'll hold you forever dear in my heart.