because i've been thinking of winter

you didn't have any cares, and you didn't want them.

you wanted simple pleasures.
an old, worn flannel and legs twisted in a down comforter.

a lifetime of winter's Saturday mornings, dozing in and out
between sips of something warm.
you wanted to know someone.
to learn completely the inter workings of another person’s mind,

to be acquainted with every inch of that person's body.
you wanted a love worth coming back to.

and though it didn't last long once you got it,

you had it.

it was the kind of romance that was complicated,
hard to understand, difficult even to describe.

it worked its way deep into you. it changed you.

then suddenly, the seasons changed,
and while you still didn't want them, you had cares. 

they arrested your mind.
they worked their own way into you,
battling for space against the passion that you had been longing to return to.

finally, you let go of the desire for that love.
you settled,
and that's where you went wrong.

(2009)